You. Have. A. Perfect. Life. And... i don't... really have any place in it... i mean, i'm... not really part of anyone's plans... not really that much of a rock, or a pebble, to make waves...

Umm...

I... i feel useless haha. I feel... like i'm only here to fulfill mindless duties..... like i'm only here to fill up some annoying holes... not really anything that would matter to anyone.

I'm listening to someone on the radio right now. She's talking about her brother (?) who died during his duties... and how she's lost her faith because of this happening.

I feel so fckn insignificant compared to her. To her pain. I feel like... i should not be... i should not even be writing about my feelings haha.