No one wants to listen anymore.
I can't describe my feelings any better than "actively dying". I'm just so tired. And no one sees why i feel this way. They just think it's an attitude i'm having, a seasonal one. It's not. It's just a volcano bursting from too many instances of sadness and frustration. My life is going nowhere. But maybe i should just stop thinking of... going out of my way to do things for myself. I mean, it's pretty pointless by now. I don't think i have any other future left. And i'm so tired of fighting for things that i want and love and want to develop. Fighting for something that i can call my own.