Keep seeing our house's room whenever i wake up from sleep, in that mid-wake state...
I wanna go home... 😔

I havent written anything for... quite a long while, i think.

I saw this pinterest post before that said something like, it's easier to fall out of love than to fall out of love because you aren't missed. Or... i dunno, i could be mixing 2 pic posts up. Anyway, it mirrors my feelings. Mirrored.

Umm.

Life is boring.
I feel like my brain is regressing.

I don't know if im being selfish or if my dad really is selfish and/or numb...

Honestly just... tired of being left to catch up... i mean like... i feel like i might be annoying him because he keeps dragging me everywhere and yet if he didnt hed prolly have done more than hes doing now.

At the same time i feel like my worth is just diminishing bit by bit... theres the nagging feeling again of "do people actually need me or maybe theyre just dragging me along out of courtesy..."

"I feel like a plant in a too small pot" indeed.

I feel like... my lifeline has been pulled out... was pulled out since i transferred work... and now i dont where to grab for one again...

*sigh*