Ive been checking my astrology readings just for fun. Maybe it's you who's being pointed at with mentions of a love that cannot be attained, and yet i cling to.
I miss you still, but i'm not hoping for anything still. I do wonder what's happening with your life though.

Looked at my works in dA and they're so... painfully... bad.

i have a feeling of inadequacy about myself, towards things i want. things i'm curious about. or things or people i love. about jobs and skills.

but yet i have this certain level of vanity that won't get out of my head and my personality, no matter how annoyed i am by it.

it's a deadly combination that almost always ends up embarrassing me memorably. it scares me, but yet this stupidity that i carry unwillingly always haunts my every move and thought.

i wish it would just leave me be. i can live with being inadequate, but i hate this vanity.