Will you give me flowers tomorrow? Will you be sweet to me? I don't need huge huge surprises. I don't need expensive chocolates. I don't need material things. Well, flowers would be nice though, lol. But it's too showy of course. I just... I just want... wish... that... you feel the same. And that you tell me, if you do. I wish... i wish for you. So. Much.
I feel so desperate. Haha. Jesus.
I like you. No, it hasn't yet reached love. Because I don't know you enough yet. But I wish to know you more. I wish to know you beneath that working cover. Beneath that quiet, too professional cover. I wish to know you as a friend. More than a friend, if possible. But... not yet. I still don't know what to do.

Things are breaking apart. I am breaking things apart.
I don't want to associate myself with anyone anymore. As much as possible.