ganun lang yun. ganun nga lang. hahaha. asa pa ko XD

asa pa ko T_T

hapi new year.

TANGINA NAGPARAMDAM NGA! HAHAHAHAHA XD

kaso maling paramdam

TT_TT

tae talaga. haha.

di ko alam kung dapat kitang tawaging manhid. amp.

oo binura ko dati yung sinulat ko, kala ko kasi nagkamali nanaman ako ng hinulugan. di ko padin actually alam kung tama, pero at least nakikita kong mukang di naman mali at di naman masama at di naman ata masakit ang bagsak.

so far ganun.

TAKTE MAGPARAMDAM KA NAMAN!

nakaka-depress at nakakasira pala ng bait ang pagka-miss sa isang tao. hahaha.

mas mabuti pa pala yung pakiramdam na may gusto ka sa isang tao pero di nya alam, tapos anjan ka lang, tumitingin ka lang sa kanya minsan. natutuwa pag anjan sya. maiinggit konti pag may iba syang kasama. mas mabuti pala yung ganyan, kasi kumbaga sa 100% sure, siguro 10% lang ang chance na maging kayo nga, or kahit mapansin ka nya.

e kung nauna kang mapansin, tapos tumagal, tapos finally pakiramdam mo kaya mo nang suklian, tapos biglang POOF nawala sya, ayun. SAKIT DONG. pakiramdam mo lahat ng tumitingin sayo nandidiri sayo o pinagtatawanan ka. kasi, yun ngang nagkagusto sayo iniiwasan ka na e. at malay mo ba kung niloloko ka lang pala nya diba? SAPUL 'BAY, SAPUL.

hay hay hay. anader witdrowal sindrom. ni di ko alam kung babalik ka ba o hinde.

juskolord. kelangan ko ata ng maiiyakan ngayon. sana may mga extra kaming babasaging plato dito, at nang makapatay nga ng ilang kriminal jan sa tabi tabi. the plate bonker vigilante. oha. may kasamang emo side story.

i think i was mistaken. hmm.

i hope i am. because i'm losing much hope about this.

miss u much T_T
but hope u get well first before anything else.

because it hurts when you are rejected and you learn about it on your own.

hehe.

another one on my list.

confessions of a broken heart?

drama amp. haha.

i keep waiting but it never came.

shiiiiit i suddenly forgot everything about you that im disappointed at. hay.

i have just decided that you weren't the right person to have given that compliment.

di ka nga nanloko di ka naman committed. oh well. haha.

a little realization just hit me.

IF you did read my posts, i'd just want you to know that i don't two-time. it's very much against my principles.

you were always welcome, and i don't collect suitors (para namang marami e wala nga). so there. just clearing that up.

napapraning nanaman ako. hay. sad.

feeling so emotionally drained.

traydor? wow. ayos.

:(

why is it darn hard for women to confess? and what the heck do i have to look for to confess?

i think ...

can't even type it. but i was happy thinking about it.

FVCK

what's keeping me from talking anyway?

hell. i miss you. i really do. hope you get well soon :(

looking back, that was stupid. heck.

dreamt of being drunk o_O

just realized that maybe, on my dying seconds, i'll miss everyone. haha.

amf senti ko.

*****

im just not happy. T_T

i don't know what i feel o_O

oh crap.

i keep waiting for you, do you know that? i keep waiting and waiting and suddenly you're gone.

i'm afraid to be left alone in a snap, while in the middle of something, and not being told that i'll be alone for long, maybe forever.

(crap. i'm blogging again. this means something...)

i wish that if you're just playing with how i feel, that you'd tell me outright. so i won't hold on to anything. i don't want to do that again. it's terrifying, the consequences. traumatic even. and it's altogether sad.

i might be silent, but it doesn't mean that my mind doesn't notice anything or that i don't feel anything. i have a problem with expression. not a problem, just an incapacity. it's not my nature to speak out loud. but it's my nature to care and worry. it's my nature to be concerned. it's my nature to love unconditionally.

i hope to turn my nature into a gift, not a curse. please help me. or even don't. but please don't degrade me. please don't make me shed tears for the same reason again and again. i don't want to feel that anymore.

you only really fall in love once in your life? WHATTHEFUCK. WRONG.

or maybe i haven't seen mine yet. hahaha. if there is :/

i = confused.

gaaaah.
gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

goodness i'm confused. i'm so stupid when it comes to this.

can you really accept me for who i am? because i feel you do, but i also feel that it's just temporary.

why do i care anyway o_O