Welp. The fact that i can't find you frustrates me cos it makes me feel like a failure lol. But i can't even remember/i'm not even sure what your surname is. And the thing is, i don't think i'll ever see you again...
Guess i just have to condition my mind to stop now.

Don't know how to find you.
Can't even remember your (exact) surname.
Ah, frustrating.

gusto ko lang po umiyak at magmakaawa na matapos na sana to kasi parang di sya natatapos saka di ko makita kung anong ending.. andami kong kailangang isipin tapos ayaw pa nito mawala sa inaalala ko. ayaw matapos. ayaw gumaling... pero parang di naman alam ng mga nakapaligid sakin kung gano kalalim yung pagod ko. parang sa lahat ng oras naka-abang ako sa masamang pangyayari, kasi anytime pwedeng mangyari. biglang liko. biglang bagsak. biglang icu. biglang himatay. biglang di makausap ng maayos.