it makes me wonder sometimes if something's wrong with me. i can't seem to be close enough to a person.
i do have my group of friends, and i value them very very much. they're my sisters. and i would do anything i can in case they need help. i hope, and i think, it's the same with them; they'd do anything for me too.
but "close"... this word... i can't seem to grasp it. i can't seem to be it with anyone. my group of friends, my "co-animals", they know my secrets. prolly not all, but most. if i didn't tell them a secret, it's prolly because i forgot all about it, or it would hurt them. but i think i just forgot it. anyway, i still don't feel like we're close enough.
sometimes it still feels like i'm faking something when i'm with them. i don't intend to fake anything, but it still feels that way. it still feels like i'm too distant, and even when i try and they try for us to be close, i still won't be close enough to them. and it's sad.