Hmm.
Am i missing something?
Or maybe i just hate ppl and it shows?
I don't hate *everyone*...
Maybe i just lack personality.
I mean... people with bright or loud personalities have no problem dealing with others. Or having someone like them.
Im maybe both independent and scared of being dependent.
How do i even talk with ppl? The only time im comfortable is when they dont see me.
I feel empty all the time.

Strings breaking in my heart. I can feel it. Them. I can feel them breaking.
I feel worthless everyday but more so right now.
I just want to disappear so i don't have to feel this, and other future hurts, anymore.
It's like... i do want to be as smoke... but not so much as to only be remembered for my pathetic abilities.
I have much more to myself, you know. I don't even know how deep i am. But maybe it's too dark, that's why people run away before they try to explore. Maybe it's too scary to risk the dark and find nothing.