Parang bigla ka nalang namatay...
I think i'm grieving for you.
Sana lumipas na.
Ang tagal tagal na pero ambigat parin sa puso...

I only ask for a few things for christmas... a source of love - to give and to receive - and... to be remembered? I guess. But it's so hard to get these, no? It's so hard to... wish, to will, to become "someone's" priority, to mean something...
I've never felt so alone. Every christmas it gets worse. Would've been better if im actually alone.

I miss you, but it feels like youve suddenly disappeared off the face of the earth... or maybe i just cant see you through the woods anymore... youve gone off too far now. My heart is broken.

Self, don't be selfish.