I just have to write this because bottling up my feelings makes me feel anxious and antsy...

Everytime she posts any text from you, i feel jealousy, sadness, and being not enough.

Why can't i be as talkative and confident as her?

And so many petty, negative, backwards comments spring up in my head.

Esp because i know that all she sees in you is your looks.

I feel... inadequate. Dad's comment keeps repeating in my head.

"Buti pa (sya) may silbi ano?"

I think i tend to overcompensate now? Neverending duties and favors...

I only ever wonder if you see whatever worth i have... may have... or maybe this is all there is...

I miss you today.