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I feel so certain of you i don't even know why. All rational signs point the other way but i can't seem to stop thinking of you, being concerned about you, collecting information about you, trying to learn who you are and how you are.

I wish it was so easy to just stop... stop and let things be...

I feel like im in no position to try things out... dictate things... do the first move... so i'll just wish that i either stop loving you or you show me a sign of mutuality. I wish it is mutual, but that feels like a long shot.