i'm feeling plagued by some really bad decisions/moves i made.

you know it's bad when you're listening to mark ronson's uptown funk and your thoughts still overtake the music.

i'm not sure if i should have done something else besides saying no and giving those reasons. i'm not sure if it had any effect, and/or what the effects are, or maybe there was no effect whatsoever.



i'm such a sorry excuse for a human being i don't even... sigh



i'd want a very direct message from you, but then there wouldn't really be any message if there isn't anything to tell, right?



so i'll just be left hanging here, thinking stupid thoughts to myself... assuming shit and making it up out of thin air... i don't even know how to interpret this... i'm so bad at understanding human relations that i make incredibly off assumptions...



i feel so fucking guilty over something that i'm not even sure about... so pathetic...



i'd like to think that there was either no effect or there was an effect on you, because you feel something as well... but it might be very, very, veeeeerryy far from that. so i just... i have to train myself to not assume shit... yeah. that's mainly it.