that is just the reality... you aren't meant to be remembered... i told myself.



why is it that everyone else can freely come and go into my life, but not you? not ever you?



i'd like to think of good thoughts, assume good things... but, it just leads to personal disappointments. lower self-esteem.



i can't talk to you comfortably because you being there just makes me conscious of myself... but i wish it was as freeflowing as when i talk to normal friends.