You're always... *always*... at the back of my mind. You never leave. You never give me breaks.
I miss you in a way that a scientist would be eager to see his lab rat.
I don't know how else to feel about you.
No open doors. No clear windows.
God is a goddamn joker sadist.
:(

"Do you have a boyfriend already?"
No, I don't.
Everyone's been too wise.
Yes, i know it's weird and late and not really normal. And yes, i feel lonely, and it's not as simple as being lonely because i have no companion. I'm lonely because *i feel like i am not good enough for anyone*. I feel like no one likes me as i am because im too... ugly or quiet or stupid or directionless or weird or childish or... i dunno... i just dunno.