hello again.
i miss you terribly.
i did not see you today. you didn't come to work. probably for your dad.
again.
i'm being selfish, i know.
i also know that what you're doing is the right thing. he needs you most right now.
i also know, most of all, that i am not in any place to demand anything from you.
i don't know if you're home.
actually, i don't know anything about you.
and neither am i in the right place to ask.

i know that we are not exactly... sharing common ground.
i'm pretty sure you have a second life somewhere.
i don't know what it is, or how it works, or how it works for you, but i'm pretty sure it exists.
but if i am to trust my brain, i wonder why you seem to be hiding this second life. hiding ever so skillfully.

but that's all i can do. wonder.
and i don't know when it will ever be enough for me.