No its not a fake facade. But my courage only ever applies to other people and not to the challenges that i face within myself.

Im so.fucking.afraid of expressing what i feel to other people.

I have all these thoughts of being mocked... being taken for granted... being put aside as boring and unimportant... being rejected...

Im so anxious of things and so distrusting of myself. There are times when i cannot get past a doubt in my grammar that i would just keep quiet until i find a source that says im correct.

Decisions are huge leaps of faith.

My doubts keep killing me. Over and over and over. Until i find that i cannot move forward anymore. Or backward. Just stuck in place.

I wish... i just want support s'all.