JE. SUS. CHRIST.

JUST LOOK AT THIS BLOG, OKAY??
LOOK AT HOW STUPID I CAN BECOME.

IT'S ALL BECAUSE OF YOU.

it's hard to contain feelings.
BUT I CANNOT TELL YOU ANYTHING.
BECAUSE.
BECAUSE
it would shortcircuit everything
it would cut everything off
it would break what is remaining
IT WOULD KILL ME
if that happens
it's a double-edged sword
I WANT YOU TO KNOW
but i do not want you to react
i don't want you to be affected
i don't want you to go further away
progress is nil
but at least you're there
YOU'RE THERE
I CAN SEE YOU
I CAN FEEL YOUR PRESENCE
i don't want you to go away
i don't want you and yours to go away
BUT I CANNOT HAVE YOU
AND IT BREAKS MY HEART

SO. MUCH.