ay. dapat maging manhid. kundi masasaktan lang.

sorry nalang kay FSM.

hurts bad. really. lalo na kasi alam ko yung tipo nya at alam kong wala akong binatbat dun. so alam ko ring umaasa lang ako. and yet di pa ko tumitigil.

first time ko nagrespond sa kanya matter of fact-ly kanina. and it felt like an achievement on my part because... because. i dont know why, other than that i looked a little rude and it felt like i pushed him off more. it felt like an achievement where i want to forget him. but it felt so much like a failure in trying to know him better.

and right now, i think i can feel the failure more than the achievement. i might get depressed again.