40 minutes more to decide.
To tell or not to?
I want this over with, but i'm so scared of the implications...

Hey, love. If you already know, just tell me, so i can stop being anxious.

I think we connect, but at the same time, it all looks superficial...
Why, i wonder.
I'm probably just along the first few chapters of the book, as it is.
I'm... not sure how this is... what this is... or maybe i'm just thinking too much of everything. Again.

I don't put up my mushy thoughts on plurk or anywhere else because i feel people are gonna judge me for 'em.
A bit on plurk, but not so much as i feel i would saturate my friends with em lol.
But i don't know how else to translate or express my feelings than through writing them down. I'd have my tongue in tangles if i tried speaking out everything, coupled with the shakes because holy crap i'd be nervous as heck.
Expressive people are lucky to have their ability.
I feel like i can't do shit with what i have. Even my art feels distorted lol.
But anyway...
I'm just a hopeless romantic trying to build a story in my head, which one day is going to tumble down, all of it, because all it's ever made with are airy wishes and flitting dreams...
Sadly.

I don't know what to make of you...

Christmas came and went, and you were nowhere to be found...

*sigh*

I don't know why i keep hoping when no signs means a clear No...
Like, i would have loved a simple greeting, but even that was not given.

Indifference can hurt...

Feeling so down...
I want to send you a message about my feelings but i'm too scared that you'll fly away...
So i'm still thinking and trying to decide.
And now one of my loves is missing or gone...
I want to cry... it feels like too much... and seeing the hope/sadness of mum kitty... it probably would sound funny to someone else but omg... i feel what she feels and it's so fucking heavy on my heart... i feel guilty that i can't take care of them better...
💧

Nakakaiyak lang yung pagkatorpe ko haha. Ang hirap magsalita.

Tanga mo kasi. Hintay ka nang hintay eh... unang una, di ka naman nya hinahanap. Pangalawa, di naman sya nagpahintay.
Ewan ko baaaaaaaa.
Nakaka-frustrate lang.
Mas ok na sana yung ayaw/huwag kesa nakabitin ka sa ere...

guessing you were at work today. wish i could've gone there too. sadly can't.
then again, it's not like anyone needs me there for anything besides work. esp you. you don't even need me for work. you just don't, in general.
it's always been this sad state... going 3years now. i wish i can easily change this.