is this manic?
i have such strong feelings about not going back to work and cutting ties with everyone. to the point that i kinda wanna cry and plead for it. i don't wanna go back to that soulless routine...

in the 5 days break we had, i've p.much forgotten about all of my work commitments. my brain is just... empty.

i am not looking forward to.. no, i DESPISE that job.

i've been thinking, you have 3 levels of tolerance for jobs: you love it, you can tolerate it, and you hate it. i went in tolerating it, but now i just hate it. i just FUCKING hate it.

ive deactivated my fb so.. i really don't wanna be a contact person anymore. i have yet to follow up on that bullshit lab company tho. im really hoping its them who deposited the amount so i don't have to follow up again on their stupid fucking asses.

from this day... i will do what i can, but i will stay in the background. i don't want to talk with anyone anymore. i ABHOR this job. i JUST FUCKING HATE IT. if it had a physical form i would have already killed it or destroyed it.