people will never hear you because you never speak. what'll be there to hear?

but how do i speak out what i feel? i really just want to cry. for so many reasons. not necessarily any particular reason. it's just a general feeling of sadness and being alone.

any sort of human contact now even feels somehow alien to me.

i want to be alone, but at the same time i wish there would be someone who would just hug me and let me cry all i want. someone who would fully understand how i feel and how i am. that i wouldn't have to talk about how i feel, because i'm no good at that part. if i talk, it's always going to be... not enough. not even close. not even accurate in its incompleteness.

any person wants to volunteer? bring shoulder napkins. lol.

gruh. i'm just so tired of stuff that i really shouldn't be tired of. it's so senseless. it's so senseless to even care. and i just feel that it's not my place, in any manner, to give advice or be mad, because it just isn't so. i can whine all i want but i cannot deal change, or push it for that matter. it's just not my place. i'm just too small to do that, even though i feel so bad/affected about it.