friendship is a passing thing. when you think you have found a new person to connect with, suddenly that person goes all... nasty, and you are disappointed again.

and disappointed some more. and more. and more.
and you can't help but wonder, "what did i do wrong again? what wrong did i commit this time?", and you will keep pondering because you simply cannot understand why you get a different reciprocation than what you wished for or expected.

being cold really helps, because you never expect anyone to be there for you, and when anyone actually does, it comes as a surprise. nasty people abound this planet.