are you sending me signals? or am i just assuming again?

heart-warming, but feel-doubting.

shit i'm a certified FAIL at this. i have seen myself act so shallow before on that one occassion that lasted several months. i mean, really, looking back, THAT WAS SO STUPID. THAT WAS SO FRAIL OF ME. but that was also meaningful, tragic, and traumatizing.

i'll NEVER forget that. ever.

and i don't want that to happen again.