as written on 06.13.08:

I'm tired of life. Why endure so much pain? To learn? What do you learn from suffering? [We probably have a 90% chance of learning about vengeance, and a 10% chance of learning about the virtue of perseverance.] Nothing. Nothing good. It's useless. Things come as they would, and they will, no matter what you do. All we need is trust/faith in things to come, and resourcefulness to accept these things, to go through them with heads whether up or down. But nobody realizes these things. Nobody sees what is there, only what they want to see.