MALIIIII!!! HAHAHAHAH XDDDD

i met the biggest living contradiction and i had no idea until now. hahahahaha XDDD JESUSCHRIST! that's... HAHAHAHAHHA XDDDD

ROFLMAO

i don't feel you anymore.

and i went "i'll be" with you. only to learn that you're lying to me.

you're the best darned liar i've ever met, and you're the worst moron too. hope you go to hell. i knew there was something fishy about you, i just don't know when to trust my intuition.

this is the first i've heard. and it's already broken your mirror. so what's next?

i don't know why i'm so angry but i just sooooo want to yell at you right now and tell you BASTARD!

maybe it's because i tried to give my all towards your seemingly save-able situation and towards this seemingly positive-forward friendship. and it all went down the drain. it all went down the drain because YOU, FUCKING BASTARD, ARE A LIAR. you piece of crap. now i know why people treat you like you're such an ass. because YOU ARE.

sorry for judging you because of one mistake, but that mistake was a huge one, and it entails you acting like you're busy and changing ways. but no, you weren't. thank God i'm good at befriending, or else i'd be duped all along.

yeah. it's best we cut off contact. i just wish i would succeed in doing just that.

everyone has their own idea of "maturity".

i suppose the best definition would be: to be able to listen to others and accept them, without having to believe in what they believe.

what else...

too much shielding can cause a gap to close up forever. but it also causes much pain, and whatever is will forever be.

hrmm... what else... gathered thoughts...

how would you react if you learned you were one of God's angels, on the note that there are only a few such angel-humans, and suddenly you're one of them?
(angel-humans: in my vocab, these are angels, with all the power and wisdom of an angel, but in the body of a human being. obvious enough?)

else else... if else...

oh. there are people worse than me. lolz.

next concept... hmm...

there are things that just can't be expressed with words, like the feeling of... well i said they can't be expressed with words. what the hell XD

questions questions.

is it stupidity to offer your life as substitute for another person's? or is it heroism?

USER LOSER

too much favors :/

you have got to have one of the most intriguing, confusing, memorable, crazy, undecipherable, rebellious, irresponsible, ballistic, feeble, regrettable, wasted footprint in my life. and i'm definitely not gonna forget that. ever.

what you're doing, i think you're trying to follow my ways.

i want to be angry at you but i can't, because i know that i'm angry out of my own folly.

i wish memory can be erased in a snap. yeah i know what you're probably thinking. haha. (that's if you ever read this post)

i can wait, if that's what you want and if i see that there's something to wait for. i just wish there was. i tried, but you're very much like a little kid. i wish you'd become more adult with your thinking. or maybe you are, but if you are, then i don't know why you did that mistake.


I DON'T WANT ANYONE CONTROLLING MY LIFE. if that is possible.


please help yourself. i said i'm willing to sacrifice. i always am willing. i'm always wanting to help others before me, because i know i'm not worth even a cent to anyone, and others are priceless as compared to me. so i wish to give myself a bit of worth, even temporarily, even if it makes me seem like i'm leading my life on wrong intentions. as long as it helps, i will help. you can use my life as your cre-.. no. not credit card. you have to pay if it was. you can use my life as your emergency exit, even for one time use, as long as i can prove my worth. no strings attached, no payment needed. free for all.


...i just don't see my life's worth. do you understand?


that's why i keep repeating that as much as possible, i don't want to become a hindrance to your life. i don't like that i'm the cause of your one-track mind. i don't want to make you wear those things that horses wear on their eyes. i will keep pushing you away because i think that's best for you. if you come back with an open mind, done with taking in all the consequences that could happen and the effects of your actions and the people who could get involved, then maybe i will accept you wholeheartedly, because i know that you are fully aware of everything and not just pinpointing your eyes on a section of the whole truth. i'm going to give you the sun, if that's all the light you need to see everything, and take that stupid little flashlight from your hands.


i have got to be the most bullheaded person in the world.

i made a wrong decision. now i'm paying for it. haha. bastard me. so stupid. it was a no brainer situation, and it found the right person to test: someone at its level of intelligence.

GODDAMNITTTT.

*right decision to remove this from FB.

should have done as i did with the other person. now i've affected another. f*ck. i wish i had no feelings.

yeah. i don't have brains. thanks for mentioning that.