i have just decided that you weren't the right person to have given that compliment.

di ka nga nanloko di ka naman committed. oh well. haha.

a little realization just hit me.

IF you did read my posts, i'd just want you to know that i don't two-time. it's very much against my principles.

you were always welcome, and i don't collect suitors (para namang marami e wala nga). so there. just clearing that up.

napapraning nanaman ako. hay. sad.

feeling so emotionally drained.

traydor? wow. ayos.

:(

why is it darn hard for women to confess? and what the heck do i have to look for to confess?

i think ...

can't even type it. but i was happy thinking about it.

FVCK

what's keeping me from talking anyway?

hell. i miss you. i really do. hope you get well soon :(

looking back, that was stupid. heck.

dreamt of being drunk o_O

just realized that maybe, on my dying seconds, i'll miss everyone. haha.

amf senti ko.

*****

im just not happy. T_T

i don't know what i feel o_O

oh crap.

i keep waiting for you, do you know that? i keep waiting and waiting and suddenly you're gone.

i'm afraid to be left alone in a snap, while in the middle of something, and not being told that i'll be alone for long, maybe forever.

(crap. i'm blogging again. this means something...)

i wish that if you're just playing with how i feel, that you'd tell me outright. so i won't hold on to anything. i don't want to do that again. it's terrifying, the consequences. traumatic even. and it's altogether sad.

i might be silent, but it doesn't mean that my mind doesn't notice anything or that i don't feel anything. i have a problem with expression. not a problem, just an incapacity. it's not my nature to speak out loud. but it's my nature to care and worry. it's my nature to be concerned. it's my nature to love unconditionally.

i hope to turn my nature into a gift, not a curse. please help me. or even don't. but please don't degrade me. please don't make me shed tears for the same reason again and again. i don't want to feel that anymore.

you only really fall in love once in your life? WHATTHEFUCK. WRONG.

or maybe i haven't seen mine yet. hahaha. if there is :/

i = confused.

gaaaah.
gaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

goodness i'm confused. i'm so stupid when it comes to this.

can you really accept me for who i am? because i feel you do, but i also feel that it's just temporary.

why do i care anyway o_O