Gawds.

I want to facepalm myself. Slap, in other words.

Wake up you little idiot.

It can't be anything.

Don't dream of it.

You loving him is the wrongest of all wrongs.

Is wrongest even a word rofl. Sounds like it is, right now.

Your feelings are just emphasizing your loneliness.

But you shouldn't expect him to take up that missing piece. There are hardly any signs that things could lead to that.

You miss him so much though. His presence alone is enough to raise your spirits. And it's so pathetic that you feel that way over someone who doesn't seem to be reciprocating your feelings.

And it's hard to tell your fears and doubts to anyone because... you are in a much lower plane of confidence. Or maybe you just don't trust yourself enough to keep it together. It feels like withdrawal is your go-to choice all the time.

You cannot hide your weaknesses forever, or use them as your strengths. They still are your weaknesses after all. Hurt is hurt, and naivity is naivity, and that can't be simply changed. You love him for all the uncertain reasons you create in your head.

You wish that you will be justified...