It feels as if a lot of women feel for you too.
I also just found out that you're the eldest among your siblings.
Im not sure about what i feel or how i feel for you. But... knowing that youre the eldest makes me look up to you more.
Im guessing that youre stuck in your current situation, and one of the reasons is because youre not sure how to treat your parents, or maybe your life just fully revolves around them. Maybe youve also passed up some opportunities in life because of this.
I dont know how to treat you. I dont know how to assess you beyond that. Youre a very tricky case. And no one seems to dare to ask you what your preferences are. But i think, if youre straight, youll have had a girlfriend, will probably be married now, and your rents will be living with you if theyre agreeable enough, altho i think they wouldnt agree with that arrangement.
I still dont know, or dont want to admit to myself, just what your preferences are. Im still hoping that im not... getting too desperate as to fall for a gay person. Thatd be a slap in my face if i did.
But i also just miss you so much. I cant find any reason to talk with you though. So ill just... keep quiet here... and try to not miss you too much.