AM I DOING THIS RIGHT?? T_T

i can't cry but my heart is... very much troubled. and my conscience is killing me. and i feel like i'm seeing trouble but i can't solve it.

umaandar ang pagka ok-ok ko hahaha.

hay.

yep. the brain works faster than the hand or the mouth.

love can be an endless horizon or a suffocating shackle.

i don't want to hurt anyone.
i feel like Atlas.

i'm cutting off contact, much as i don't wish to. so much for friendship.

all about 17. there's something with 17. it sticks to me.

what's with 17? special number? what do people who love 17 have in common?

what does 17 have to do with 27?

so wrong. i feel guilty even if i didn't do anything.

mali talaga. i'm worried.

it's amazing talking to people from different walks of life. it's almost like i myself am experiencing what they have experienced before.

but there are still some people not comfortable with showing their true colors, for reasons too petty or too unfathomable to another being.

***

i'm talkative? hahaha :D that's new. i suppose i am. only not as much in real life.

***

it's a new beginning for me. and i'm going to start it right by going with what i promised to God and to myself. i will do as i have to, in full heart.

i love you guys. i really do. you've opened a lot of doors for me. it means a lot :)

younger?

oh crap.
i'm all a-flutter now.

NTAN u bastard.

i'm stumped. deepshit.

this is THE gamble.

bless my win.

i can literally feel my heart "flowering" o_O
weird feeling.
oh well. so long as it's joyous.

feeling this.

Already Gone - Kelly Clarkson

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye
Even with our fists held high
It never would've worked out right yet
We were never meant for do or die

I didn't want us to burn out
I didn't come here to hold you
Now I can't stop

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

Looking at you makes it harder
But I know that you'll find another
That doesn't always make you want to cry
Started with a perfect kiss
Then we could feel the poison set in
Perfect couldn't keep this love alive
You know that I love you so
I love you enough to let you go

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

Remember all the things we wanted
Now all our memories, they're haunted
We were always meant to say goodbye

I want you to know that it doesn't matter
Where we take this road
Someone's gotta go
And I want you to know
You couldn't have loved me better
But I want you to move on
So I'm already gone

I'm already gone, already gone
You can't make it feel right
When you know that it's wrong
I'm already gone, already gone
There's no moving on
So I'm already gone

interesting how i'm finding brothers and sisters in communities other than my clan.

besides my ninang's family of course. they are sisters to me.