syet. scary results.

don't ask or expect too much. put your agony, sadness, love, hate and joy in blogs. in terms. in words. in limits.

it will kill you if you keep trying to tread on tracks not yet paved.

you don't know ANYTHING about me. but i'm quite willing to expose myself to you. and yet you don't know that i am.

face it, self: you are no more than a new friend. a new ONLINE friend at that. so shut your brain and "stick it up your face-powder." might do you some good to quit being naive.

the love of my life is probably a cat. or the loves of my life are in cats. hahaha. no matter. i can keep loving them for all they care.

i wish i were a hidden treasure. i don't give a fuck if i'm hidden. as long as i know that i'm a treasure. that i have enough value to make people drop tears when they see me. but i'm just your average maria in a damn blunt world.

maybe if i provide the tip that the world needs, then i might be considered a treasure.

u don't know... u have no idea at all... about how u made me feel weird when i got home and read that.

that was WAY TOO WEIRD.

is there a connection of some sort? oh men. this is totally wrong.

hmm... there are currently... maybe 2 people who i think are what i think.

is it wrong to assume that someone likes you?

new discovery

if one wishes to know an entity that is far greater, far nobler, far better - or, maybe the right terms are, greatest noblest and best - than the human species, or the living person, then don't read. KNOW. know by experiencing.

even the written word has too much limits. in fact, too much so that most of the time it doesn't even justify reality as we mean to share it.

and no, the spoken word is not exempted from these limits. there is a certain scope for each word, such that art becomes a term many cannot comprehend, simply because it is outsourced from another term, beauty. and the word beauty also has no limits.

what sense does it make if one says that beauty should be based on the greatest-noblest-best, if one does not know what/how/who the greatest-noblest-best is? judging by such terms only puts your judgment on the level of a human being's mind.

how can u possibly be so sure that you'll be giving her everything that will make her happy all the time?

what if what makes her happy will make you sad? will you still do it? will you still follow her wishes?

what if it will make her happy that you leave her alone? will you do that?

is being there all the time and serving as the sudden-death saver be enough for you? be enough for her?

or maybe the question is, is she happy with you being like that?

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does getting over her seem like such an impossible move?
i've gone through it, and i can say that it only SEEMS to be like that, but it isn't. only, it took me about a year to really put his memory in the right place.

i simply wish that you'd finally learn to look at others :(

bagong paksa

so. alam nya pala na ang pag-ibig ay hindi dapat maging makasarili. naramdaman nya na pala yon.

hay. ang problema kasi, tama yung kinoment ni hayskulprend. magmahal ka ng iba, may masasaktang isa. tama nga naman. at pwede mo bang sisihin yung minamahal mo kung di matanggap ng radar nya ang signal mo? hinde.

kaya... ayun. magsiiyakan nalang tayo, magpakalulong sa "crush", pagkatapos, magbagongbuhay. di naman bagong buhay. magbagong hanap siguro. pero sa kaso ko di ako naghahanap. natatagpuan nalang bigla e. kaya ako, mag-iintay nalang ulit ako kung me matatagpuan ako ulit. kaya lang, ika nga, "so close yet so far away... nandyan nga cellphone wala namang load."